January 2022

 

Books read:

  •         The Fire Next Time by James Baldwin
  •        Lemon by Kwon Yeo-sun
  •         The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy
  •         1000 Years of Joys and Sorrows: A Memoir by Ai Weiwei
  •      The Secret to Superhuman Strength by Alison Bechdel

Trails walked:

  •         Wind River Trail snowshoe near Estes Park (January 7th and 9th)
  •         Black Canyon Trail near Estes Park (January 13th)
  •          La Barge Box in the Superstition Wilderness near Apache Junction, AZ (January 21st)
  •         Ute Creek Golf Course cross country ski in Longmont (January 26th)

Song(s) of the month Eliza Gilkyson – Eliza Jane, Coast, Death in Arkansas, Touchstone, Peace Call, Requiem, Buffalo Gals Redux


Scientist Spotlight – Dr. Gang Chen, Mechanical Engineer and Professor at MIT




January Summary:  

You may have heard about the Marshall Fire in Boulder County that raged through the towns of Superior and Louisville, Colorado on December 30th.  Spurred on by 100mph winds, the fire decimated neighborhoods in seconds.  30,000 people were evacuated, over 1,000 homes destroyed, and several more damaged. I remember getting a call from my son early in the afternoon that day.  He lives in Louisville.  “Dad, something is wrong, there is a fire somewhere and the smoke is getting worse.  I’m having a hard time breathing.”  He grabbed his wallet and fled to our home.  Luckily his wife was Back East visiting her parents for the New Year holiday and his two-year-old son had spent the previous night with us, his grandparents; so he only had himself to worry about.  There were horrifying stories of families fleeing, pets perishing, and houses being enveloped by flames in seconds. Two people lost their lives (an absurdly low number based on the speed of this fire).  A close friend of our daughter’s had seconds to pack a bag of jackets for her 4 kids (the following day’s weather was forecast to reach below zero temperatures).  As they drove off, they saw their home go up in flames.  Many families spent the following nights in shelters (some are still there) and many will never be able to rebuild, since insurance companies only cover a percentage of the home’s true value and there are very few available homes for sale in the Denver metropolitan area. 


That night, while watching the news feeds, we were almost certain our son and his family had lost their home also.  Video taken near where they lived wasn’t promising.  It was only the next morning, when they found out from a neighbor who jumped police lines that their home was spared by mere yards.  They were very lucky, even though there was still some smoke damage and also some plumbing damage, mainly due to the fact that zero-degree temperatures followed the next day, and the gas was cut off so the remaining homes were left without heating for the freezing pipes.  It was a freakish disaster; a December fire fueled by hurricane-force winds followed by zero-degree temperatures. That’s not supposed to happen.  But the thing is, we are seeing freakish weather-related disasters more and more frequently.  We know why, but we still refuse to address the problem, like frogs in slowly boiling water. 


Our son, daughter-in-law, and grandson stayed with us for the week and half following the fire.  We were living like a pre 1950s American family!  We watched shows together, ate together, and talked about the mitigation of smoke damage.  We were lucky.  When their home was finished being repaired and the air filtered, they returned, much to the chagrin of our grandson’s grandma who would be very satisfied to live happily ever after with ALL of her kids and grandkids living in the same house.


This month has been a great reading month, with five great books from American, Indian, Korean, and Chinese authors.  I’ve also managed my first snowshoe hike and cross-country ski attempt, along with an Arizona desert hike while I was back in Phoenix helping with the aftermath of my mother-in-law’s death.   


Bridging the Political Divide With My Mother-in-Law:

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about our current age of disinformation.  I’ve read many papers about it.  It’s no longer possible to convince someone of a scientific fact with data; especially when that scientific fact doesn’t fit into one’s ideology.  So, do we just let this all happen?  What do we do?  Here’s a story.

My wonderful mother-in-law passed away suddenly recently.  She was 86, so suddenly doesn’t seem like the right word, but it really is the right word to anyone who knew her. She had many years of life left in her.  She was a staunch conservative which created some tension with her daughter who is a staunch progressive.  But in the past few years they grew very close and would never talk politics.  She would stay with us for weeks at a time and saw how much effort I put into researching and acting on how to address climate change.  Occasionally she would ask me about some detail about carbon or global warming and I would answer as best I could.  She asked why I spent so much time on this in my retirement years and my answer lately was that it was for my grandson, her great-grandson.  She and I have always had a great relationship; I have always respected her, and she has always respected me.  She eventually changed her mind on climate change and told me to keep on keeping on with my work in this area.  When I called her after the Marshall fire to let her know that my son’s family had to evacuate, her first response was, “That darned climate change!”  It made my day, my week, my year!

This is how we address the disparity of information.  We keep close relationships with those we love and respect, especially when our political differences are large.  We keep the dialogue open, and we tell stories to each other.  We act locally when we can because the national dialogue is too toxic and potentially unchangeable with biased media and social media. 

So, give a hug to someone you love whose political affiliation is opposite yours.  It may eventually invite a conversation that bridges the disinformation ravine.  


Scientist Spotlight: Dr. Gang Chen

I read about Dr. Chen just after I finished reading one of this month’s books 1000 Years of Joys and Sorrows by Ai Weiwei.  Like Ai Weiwei’s parents, Dr. Chen’s parents were sent to work in the labor camps during the “cultural revolution” which cracked down on intellectuals.  In 2018 the US began an initiative to crack down on Chinese espionage and, like many government programs, it went too far.  Dr. Chen was arrested on January 14, 2021.  His charge was that he hadn’t revealed his connection to other scientists in China when he applied for a federal grant for research.  His ties were never under suspicion, but not revealing them was now against the law. 

His work is in heat transfer, and he hopes to develop a semiconductor that could convert heat from car exhaust into electricity, or fabric for clothing that could cool the body.  Since his arrest, all his graduate students doing research were moved to other projects, so he’s lost a lot of time. The US government dismissed all charges this month.  It’s sad and ironic that he left China because of their political repression of science and ideas. In his interview with the New York Times, he said, “I am angry, I am afraid. My love is science. I did not want politics, right? I saw that, and I got away from it. I do my devotion to science. I help people, I support. But I learned that you can’t get away. Politics impacts everybody. So if there are things that are not right, we all need to speak out.”

 

Song(s) of the month: Eliza Gilkyson

Gilkyson is another of the many great Austin singer songwriters, although she was born in Los Angeles and has also spent a lot of time in northern New Mexico.  I put her in the same category as Lucinda Williams – a great writer and singer who has never really gotten her due.  They have both been able to make a good living, but the songs are so great, fame should have found them.  Eliza has made 25 albums (two of them Grammy nominated) in her 50 plus years of being an artist. Her dad, Terry, received an Academy Award nomination for his song Bear Necessities from The Jungle Book movie.  In addition to her songwriting, she is also an activist on issues of water conservation and migrant workers’ rights.  It was really hard, but I ended up choosing seven of her many incredible songs to profile here.

Eliza Jane – A good friend recently gave me a moniker that I’m actually kinda proud of; she said I’m an Apocaloptimist – Someone who knows it’s all going to sh&t but still thinks things will turn out OK.  Well, this song that Eliza Gilkyson wrote to herself describes this feeling perfectly. 

Oh Eliza, little Eliza Jane
I'm so worried about everything
Dogs are barking, birds are singing
I'm so worried about everything

Listen to it here and below: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mmq8YFEfnQw



Coast – This is such a beautiful song about taking time to get back to yourself. 

Think I'll go down to the Coast for awhile,
Find a little cabin by the Sea.
Think I need to be alone for awhile,
Find out what ever became of me.

Listen to it here and below: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rJvLJALeM-o


Death in Arkansas – So many topics in this great song that was written by her brother Tony.  Family, land, trees, overdevelopment.  It’s wonderful. 

I liked the wagons and the wheels
The wind that knocked us down in the fields
And the girls with the southern drawl
And those that came before were the pictures on the wall

Listen to it here and below: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t9zTTAXd4Z4


Touchstone – I was listening to this song as I was driving to Arizona this month after hearing of the death of my mother-in-law.  She was the Touchstone for her family.

Your love has changed me for the better

The way that love can changе us all

Listen to it here and below: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-D4Hlq8v2Q


Peace Call – Her rendition of this Woody Guthrie song is brilliant and she has help from Patty Griffin, Mary Chapin Carpenter, and Iris Dement.  Wow!  Woody never recorded it, but she found the words and set it to a perfect soundtrack.


Embrace the ones around you;
Get ready for my bugle call of peace

Listen to it here and below:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFctwi5Tswg


Requiem – She wrote this after the devastating 2004 tsunami in southeast Asia that killed a quarter of a million people.  It’s a hauntingly lovely prayer that people have used to honor victims of many disasters since. 

Mother Mary, full of grace, awaken

All our homes are gone, our loved ones taken
Taken by the sea
Mother Mary, calm our fears, have mercy

 Listen to it here and below:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zfyWicPASU0


Buffalo Gals Redux:  A traditional western song given new life from a woman’s perspective.  It’s just a fun song which shows her range of styles.

 Listen to it here and below: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H4kBp0gcazQ




The Fire Next Time by James Baldwin – The title of this stunning book comes from a pre civil war spiritual song called Mary Don’t You Weep.  There is a verse in that song that goes:

God gave Noah the rainbow sign
No more water, the fire next time

In my May 2020 blog I reviewed Between the World and Me by Ta’Nehisi Coates which was published in 2015. It started my old white man aha moment about our country’s history and how we’ve been particularly uneducated about the black experience in this country.  What I can’t believe now, is that James Baldwin wrote The Fire Next Time in 1962!  He was stating things back then that I’ve only heard about since the Black Lives Matter movement and reading Coates’ novel.  Why wasn’t I taught Baldwin’s works when I was growing up?  I’m sure some people were, but certainly not in New Mexico.  The more I read about all of this, the more I understand what Critical Race Theory and the 1619 Project are all about, and the more I believe they are a necessary piece of the puzzle to getting to the end of racism in America. 

 That’s what Baldwin had hope for.  He disagreed with the Nation of Islam’s views which just threw hate the other way.  Although he was a young prodigy pastor in his teens (mainly to escape drugs and crime on the streets), he believed that organized religions aren’t helping, and are in many cases hurting our ability to end racism.  He believed that love was the answer, along with education about our country’s true history.  Although he had hope, he also saw the realities of the situation, and was not sure if it was possible.  I think he was brilliant and so far ahead of his time (I need to read some WEB DuBois to see just how far ahead he was).  I highlighted so many sections of this book that my Kindle stopped allowing anymore highlights because I guess I was basically copying the whole book.  Anyway, below are several highlights that probably explain Baldwin’s views better than my summary ever could:

In a letter to his nephew about white people: You must accept them and accept them with love. For these innocent people have no other hope. They are, in effect, still trapped in a history which they do not understand; and until they understand it, they cannot be released from it. They have had to believe for many years, and for innumerable reasons, that black men are inferior to white men.

The black man has functioned in the white man’s world as a fixed star, as an immovable pillar: and as he moves out of his place, heaven and earth are shaken to their foundations.

The fear that I heard in my father’s voice, for example, when he realized that I really believed I could do anything a white boy could do, and had every intention of proving it, was not at all like the fear I heard when one of us was ill or had fallen down the stairs or strayed too far from the house. It was another fear, a fear that the child, in challenging the white world’s assumptions, was putting himself in the path of destruction.

From my own point of view, the fact of the Third Reich alone makes obsolete forever any question of Christian superiority, except in technological terms. White people were, and are, astounded by the holocaust in Germany. They did not know that they could act that way. But I very much doubt whether black people were astounded—at least, in the same way.

The brutality with which Negroes are treated in this country simply cannot be overstated, however unwilling white men may be to hear it.

Yes, I knew two or three people, white, whom I would trust with my life, and I knew a few others, white, who were struggling as hard as they knew how, and with great effort and sweat and risk, to make the world more human.

I am very much concerned that American Negroes achieve their freedom here in the United States. But I am also concerned for their dignity, for the health of their souls, and must oppose any attempt that Negroes may make to do to others what has been done to them.

For hard example, white Americans congratulate themselves on the 1954 Supreme Court decision outlawing segregation in the schools; they suppose, in spite of the mountain of evidence that has since accumulated to the contrary, that this was proof of a change of heart—or, as they like to say, progress.


Wind River Trail – My son and daughter-in-law gave each other snowshoes for Christmas, and since they were still staying with us due to the Marshall Fire, I was able to borrow them for this hike.  I had never snowshoed before, not even in my yard.  Luckily it wasn’t really that hard to figure out.  One thing about snowshoeing that I didn’t expect, was that, just because you have snowshoes on doesn’t mean you won’t sink into the snow.  You just won’t sink in as much.  It’s hard work stepping into deep snow with snowshoes on and then pulling them out with each step. I walked about 5 miles on this day and it felt like 15 miles of normal walking.  I suppose that I will eventually get better at it, but to be honest, it wasn’t as “fun” as I thought it would be.

The trailhead starts at the eastern terminus of the Alva B Adams Tunnel.  Alva Adams was a Colorado Senator in the 1920s and 30s, and the tunnel was a four-year project (part of the Colorado Big Thompson project) completed in 1944 to transfer water 13 miles from the Western Slope to the growing cities of the Eastern Slope of the Rockies.  It’s part of the Colorado River allocation project and the water transferred is stored in several reservoirs along the Front Range (Lake Mary, Estes Lake, Carter Lake, Boulder Reservoir, among others).  The pumps along the Western Slope that send the water through the tunnel are powered by the Eastern Slope power plants by a 69,000-volt nitrogen filled power line that rests on top of the tunnel.  Fascinating.

I skirted the edge of the small reservoir and then headed uphill along the Wind River.  The trail eventually flattened out with a few ups and downs until I reached the junction with the Storm Pass trail.  The Storm Pass trail was not passable here without trudging through waist deep snow, so this is where my hike ended.  The wind was howling on this day and the trees were making all kinds of strange noises.  I was constantly turning around suddenly (while tripping over the large snowshoes) wondering what that noise was….it was the trees. I wonder what they were trying to tell me…. they were probably just laughing at my snowshoe clumsiness.

A couple of days later I came back up here with my wife, son, daughter-in-law and grandson to test out the ski-fitted kid carrier that is normally outfitted to be pulled by bicycle.  We didn’t make it very far on this day due to wind  and cold, but it didn’t matter.  We played in the snow a bit and headed home. 

  


Bighorn sheep on the drive up

Skiers had already cut a path near the trailhead

Small reservoir at the Alva B Adams tunnel

Lots of snow on the informative sign

Buried trail signs

Here is where the snow was too deep even for snowshoes

Nice winter scene

Nice views

Wife, grandson, son, and daughter-in-law a couple days later

Freezing wife waiting for DIL and grandson

Wife and son

DIL and grandson playing in the snow




Lemon by Kwon Yeo-sun – I did something with this book that I have done with some movies, but never with a book.  I read it over again right after I finished it the first time. Partly because it was only 150 pages, but also because I was searching for more clues about what happened in this mind-boggling story.  It’s not your typical crime story even though the first chapter starts out like one, with a police detective interviewing a murder suspect.  

The story is told from the viewpoints of three different women associated in some way with 18-year-old Hae-on who was tragically killed during summer break in her senior year in high school.  You (or I, anyway) are never really able to wrap your mind around who killed Hae-on and why, but after two readings I have a general idea of what happened.  However, that’s not really the focus of the novel.  It was written to examine the psychological impacts on those left behind in the years following the murder.  In addition to examining these impacts, there are also elements of social class advantages and disadvantages (one of the suspects was from a lower class and the other was from an upper class---guess which one gets the worst treatment from the police?). 

The novel won best international crime novel of the year from CrimeReads.com and also was the favorite book of the year from the Washington Independent Review of Books and was an editor’s choice from the New York Times Book Review.  A review by Vulture magazine stated that "Your enjoyment of it will depend on how you feel about ambiguity."

The author, Kwon Yeo-sun has received several Korean literature awards since her debut novel in 1996, but Lemon is the first of her novels to be translated into English. The translation was by Janet Hong who also won an award for her translation. Here are some of those translated lines:

I’d never seen a mishmash of such bizarre effects on a young woman’s face, to the extent that her face itself seemed a riddle. It was both familiar and unfamiliar, one I’d seen long ago yet never seen, and one I wanted to both avoid and scrutinize.

That was Da-on’s gift. She had a lively, bubbly kind of warmth that could pull Hae-on’s devastating, otherworldly, even glacial, beauty into our reality, dissolving it in laughter.

He used to break the first cigarette by accident as he plucked it out from a new pack. Whenever this would happen, he would become red in the face and lose his temper. After living a mundane, dull life, where a trivial incident like this was cause enough for him to become angry, he died.

The period of being stuck in a deep well finally came to an end. One day I observed my mother picking up objects and studying them, and then either moving them elsewhere or placing them inside something. I had to watch for a while before I realized she was cleaning.

“For example, somewhere in the world, a girl is born. She’s born into a family so poor she often goes hungry. She’s beaten, rummages through garbage for food, gets sick, and goes blind. When she’s eleven years old, she is gang-raped, stabbed repeatedly, and murdered. Then her body is thrown out in the same garbage dump where she’d rummaged for food her whole life. How can you believe in a god after that?”

Couldn’t each moment we’re living now be the meaning of life?



 Black Canyon Trail – In Arizona, there is an 80-mile Black Canyon trail, part of which I’ve hiked.  This was NOT that trail.  This Black Canyon trail starts just outside the town of Estes Park and shares the same parking lot as the popular Gem Lake hike.  I walked around 3.5 miles each way, just short of the junction with the Dark Mountain Trail.  From this junction, the Black Canyon trail would continue another 4 plus miles until it meets the Lawn Lake trail about a half mile from Lawn Lake.  It would be a big summer day hike to Lawn Lake from here, but on this winter day I was satisfied with a total of 7 miles, especially since about 4 of those miles included walking through a foot or more of snow (without snowshoes this time).  The big draw on this hike are the views to the south of Longs Peak and of the aptly named Lumpy Ridge climbing walls to the north.  Around a mile of the trail traverses the private property of MacGregor Ranch, so expect to walk among cattle, horses, and the various deposits they make.  It was a beautiful day in the 50s with a light breeze and a few clouds, so pretty perfect hiking weather.  I saw maybe 5 other people on this hike all day (all within the first 2 miles of the trailhead).  The elevation gain (1,700 feet in 3 plus miles) and the foot of snow combined to tire me out pretty good on this day, but it was a good kind of tired.  On my way out, just outside of the MacGregor Ranch entry, I stopped the car to gaze at some huge bull elk in the meadow.  A majestic end to a nice day. 

 

Nice views to the south

Lots of rock climbing access trails

Snow was fairly deep and no showshoes this time

Longs Peak view

Climbing wall along Lumpy Ridge

Twin Owls climbing wall

This rock cracked itself up

Nice views as sun was getting lower

Nice low sun

Beautiful sky

Large bull elk just hangin' out


The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy – 

 This was a great, great read.  I will eventually purchase the physical book to put on my bookshelf with the hope of lending it out and even reading again.  I was shaking and gasping (no exaggeration) in the final chapters.  A book like this is why I love to read.  Roy’s debut (debut!) novel, it won the 1997 Booker Prize and was included on The Telegraph’s list of the 10 best Asian novels of all time (which also includes two other great, great books I’ve read; Midnight’s Children by Salmon Rushdie and The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle by Haruki Murakami).  The novel took 4 years to complete before it was published in 1997.  Roy has written only one other novel, The Ministry of Utmost Happiness, published in 2017, which I will certainly read now.  She is also a political activist involved in human rights and environmental causes in India.  Her views on human rights can be inferred from the brutal Indian caste system depictions in the novel. 

OK, so, the book.  It’s a story about Rahel and Estha, twins born to their mother, Ammu and her alcoholic and abusive husband whom she leaves to return, disgraced, to her family home.  The story jumps back and forth in time and weaves together the story of how a tragic event (actually a series of tragic events) can impact people for years.  In an interview in 2007, Roy said this about going back and forth in time in the novel: “It was the most challenging part of writing the book. It begins at the end and ends in the middle. It took me a very long time to understand what I was doing… I could sense a rhythm and I trusted it. But it was only when I had written a fair amount that I saw the structure clearly—that one strand of the story takes place over a single day and the others weave across years. If it had been a straight, linear narrative it would have meant something altogether different. Each ordinary moment becomes more heightened, more poignant because it is viewed through the complex lens of both past and future.”

 The characters are fascinating and so real, you know that they somehow must exist.  In the same interview, Roy said: “I spent more than four years writing The God of Small Things—holed up with it.  At the time, the characters in the book were more real to me than the “real world” was.” 

 The story, the characters, and the structure of this novel would have been enough to make it great, but the beautiful writing is what sealed the deal for me.  See for yourself in all of these lines:

Her husband turned out to be not just a heavy drinker but a full-blown alcoholic with all an alcoholic’s deviousness and tragic charm.

When his bouts of violence began to include the children, and the war with Pakistan began, Ammu left her husband and returned, unwelcomed, to her parents in Ayemenem. To everything that she had fled from only a few years ago. Except that now she had two young children. And no more dreams.

He began to look wiser than he really was. Like a fisherman in a city. With sea-secrets in him.

It was never important enough. Because Worse Things had happened. In the country that she came from, poised forever between the terror of war and the horror of peace, Worse Things kept happening.

Every Thursday, undaunted by the merciless midday sun, they would stand there by the well. The young girl and the intrepid Jesuit, both quaking with unchristian passion. Using the Bible as a ruse to be with each other.

Baby Kochamma loved the…house and cherished the furniture that she had inherited by outliving everybody else.

She said that choosing between her husband’s name and her father’s name didn’t give a woman much of a choice.

Looking at herself like this, Ammu’s soft mouth would twist into a small, bitter smile at the memory—not of the wedding itself so much as the fact that she had permitted herself to be so painstakingly decorated before being led to the gallows. It seemed so absurd. So futile. Like polishing firewood.

All Indian mothers are obsessed with their sons and are therefore poor judges of their abilities.

Marxism was a simple substitute for Christianity. Replace God with Marx, Satan with the bourgeoisie, Heaven with a classless society, the Church with the Party, and the form and purpose of the journey remained similar. An obstacle race, with a prize at the end. Whereas the Hindu mind had to make more complex adjustments.

“Don’t use the name of the Lord in vain,” Baby Kochamma said. “I’m not,” Chacko said. “I’m using it for a very good reason.”

The taxi smelled of sleep. Old clothes rolled up. Damp towels. Armpits. It was, after all, the taxi driver’s home. He lived in it. It was the only place he had to store his smells.

The steel door of the incinerator went up and the muted hum of the eternal fire became a red roaring. The heat lunged out at them like a famished beast. Then (she) was fed to it. Her hair, her skin, her smile. Her voice. Her goodnight kiss. The way she held their faces steady with one hand (squashed-cheeked, fish-mouthed) while she parted and combed their hair with the other. All this was fed to the beast, and it was satisfied.

As a child, she had learned very quickly to disregard the Father Bear Mother Bear stories she was given to read. In her version, Father Bear beat Mother Bear with brass vases. Mother Bear suffered those beatings with mute resignation.

The compound was littered with moons, one in each mud puddle.

The early morning heat was full of the promise of worse to come.

What came for them? Not Death. Just the end of living.

On the station platform Rahel doubled over and screamed and screamed. The train pulled out. The light pulled in.

They had nothing. No future. So they stuck to the small things.

 

La Barge Box – I’ve written about this, my favorite spot in the Superstition Wilderness, in my January 2019 and January 2020 blogs. With the sudden death of my mother-in-law in Arizona I took some time to think about her while revisiting this beautiful spot.  I don’t have much more to say about this hike beyond what I’ve written before, other than to say that after over a year in Colorado, I find that I really do miss the desert.  As much as I love the mountains, my hiking life was mostly spent in the desert and it feels like home.  Also, the Superstition Wilderness has some of the most difficult hiking you will find; steep climbs, rocky terrain, water crossings, boulder hopping, and many very pointy plants that conspire to collect your DNA at every turn.  My desert hiking experience prepared me well for the mountain hikes I’ve been enjoying in Colorado.
 

 



The jumbled peaks of the Superstitions looming

Nice views of this rough wilderness

Battleship rock and Weavers Needle 

Towering rock formations

La Barge Box with lots of water

La Barge Box sun and water

Crazy rock formations towering above

Serene water reflections in the box

Beautiful

Cliff reflections in the pools

My lunch spot

Streaming waters not movies

Final look back

Nice sky with Canyon Lake and the trailhead below



1000 Years of Joys and Sorrows by Ai Weiwei – 

I had heard of Ai Weiwei (eye way way) previously as a famous dissident artist from China who helped design the Bird’s Nest stadium for the 2008 Beijing Summer Olympics.  But I didn’t know much more than that. He published this memoir in 2021.  It tells the story of his father who was a famous Chinese poet during the Mao Zedong “cultural revolution” era.  And then it goes on to tell Ai Weiwei’s story.  One of his father’s poems is where the title of the book came from.  They were/are both considered dissidents by the Chinese government, mainly for speaking the truth to too many people.  The author’s father spent much of his life in labor camps (Little Siberia) in northern China where he raised his son.  Life was cold and brutal in those camps and the stories about this time were the most compelling in the memoir.  Ai Weiwei ended up spending several weeks in jail himself under horrible conditions, mainly because he was uncovering the truth about the 2008 Sichuan earthquake that killed thousands of school kids.  His stories about first using the internet in the 1990s to tell the world what was happening in China is interesting as his online accounts slowly disappeared due to government censorship.  He is a fascinating person who certainly has an artist’s sensibilities, but he also is a social activist who has been able to use his international fame to help bring light to many of the world's humanitarian issues, not just in China.  Here are some of the lines from the memoir that I enjoyed:

In 1910, the year my father was born, my grandfather had just turned twenty-one. The Qing dynasty was nearing the end of its 266-year rule, while in Russia the fall of the czars and the advent of the Soviet regime were just seven years away. It was the year that Tolstoy and Mark Twain died, the year that Edison invented talkies in faraway New Jersey. In Xiangtan, in Hunan, seventeen-year-old Mao Zedong was still in school; his first wife, selected for him by his parents in an arranged marriage, died a month before my father was born.

In the Great Depression that followed the stock market crash of 1929, unemployment in Japan rose to 2.5 million, and the Japanese militarist government saw China’s resource-rich northeast as an economic lifeline. By September 18, 1931, Japanese troops occupied the city of Shenyang, the old Manchu capital, and in the months that followed they brought all three of China’s northeastern provinces under their control.

In satisfying the demands of the new order, the Chinese people suffered a withering of spiritual life and lost the ability to tell things as they had truly occurred.

In Little Siberia, isolation forged a closeness between us, and material deprivation brought with it a different kind of plenty, shaping the outline of my life to come.

...he didn’t want me to get too immersed in the world of books, because he knew the dangers that could lead to.

At the outset, Mao’s regime had confiscated all privately owned land in the countryside and redistributed it among the hundreds of millions of rural workers, thus gaining their trust and support. However, once land reform had eliminated the landlord class and enabled the appropriation of its wealth, the Communist Party reversed course, reclaiming the land and collectivizing it instead.

550,000 intellectuals would now be subjected to “reform through labor.” Twenty years later, when they finally received “rehabilitation,” only 100,000 would still be alive. By then, dissidence was all but dead.

Young people in China today have no knowledge at all of the student protests in Tiananmen Square in 1989, and if they knew they might not even care, for they learn submission before they have developed an ability to raise doubts and challenge assumptions.

The first case of SARS had been detected in south China in late 2002. What happened next resembled every other disaster in China: The government suppressed accurate reporting, while officials from the Ministry of Health claimed on television that the epidemic had been effectively controlled, and the World Health Organization removed Beijing from the list of affected areas. Then, on April 8, 2003, a military doctor revealed to foreign media the full gravity of the epidemic: his hospital alone had sixty cases, and six people had died. For much of 2003, the mysterious power of the epidemic was pitted against China’s opaque regime, freezing Beijing in near paralysis and deepening suspicion and hostility between people. The COVID-19 crisis in Wuhan seventeen years later would follow a similar pattern.

2008 Beijing Olympics:  Migrant workers had been expelled from Beijing, and many shops had been shuttered: the everyday pleasures of normal people were suspended in order to satisfy the whims of the authorities.

I was waging a Sisyphean struggle, posting content that was constantly being deleted.

I am reminded of lines my father wrote after visiting the ruins of an ancient Silk Road city in Xinjiang: Of a thousand years of joys and sorrows / Not a trace can be found / You who are living, live the best life you can / Don’t count on the earth to preserve memory

 

Ute Creek Golf Course cross country ski – Well my first snowshoe trip was this month, so why not my first cross-country skiing?  It wasn’t in the mountains because winds were supposed to be 30mph up there on this day, so my daughter-in-law, grandson, and I decided to test it out on the golf course near our home.  It was a beautiful sunny day with no wind and temps in the upper 20s to lower 30s.  We were also testing out pulling a kid carrier on skis which turned out to be a pretty good workout!  I can’t say that I’ve gotten the hang of cross-country skiing yet (I mean it’s been 45 years since I’ve even skied period), but I think another trip (or two or three) around the golf course might do the trick and then I’ll be ready for the mountains!
 


From the Alison Bechdel graphic memoir I read this month (see below) - maybe in 16 years I'll get the hang of it....



DIL pulling grandson with snowcapped mountains in the background

Grandson had to help push

Rookie - neither kicking nor gliding

Great workout though!




The Secret to Superhuman Strength by Alison Bechdel - 

My first reading of a graphic novel, well to be more precise it's a graphic memoir.  MacArthur Genius Award winner Alison Bechdel is fairly well known for her 2006 graphic memoir, Fun House which was subsequently turned into a Broadway play that won a Tony award for best musical in 2015.  I think I picked a pretty good author and cartoonist for my first foray into this medium.  It's beautifully drawn and written.  The common thread in the memoir is her never-ending search for strengthening her body (and mind), starting with watching her mom exercise to Jack Lalanne videos (I remember watching my mom and grandma exercising to these videos when I was young in the 1960s).  Eventually Bechdel tried nearly every mode of exercise including running, biking, skiing, snow shoeing, cross-fit, and yoga; always searching for that superhuman strength she desired as a young girl.  So that is the one common thread, but her story includes so much more.  She intertwines Buddhist philosophy and 18th and 19th century writers like William and Dorothy Wordsworth, Ralph Waldo Emerson, Margaret Fuller, and Samuel Taylor Coleridge; along with 1950s beat writers Jack Kerouac and Allen Ginsberg.  She goes through all of the cultural events in the world from the 1960s to the present, from the civil rights era to Vietnam to the divisive politics which have swept our country and world.  Plus she adds the emotion, love, and grief of all the relationships in her life, both family and romantic.  Her writing and her drawing combine to tell an entertaining and deep story about how to strengthen not only your body, but also your mind, and your relationship with others.  I did NOT read this on my Kindle because it would not work at all with these drawings.  I've included a couple of them below along with some of the words she wrote that I enjoyed:

It's a world gone mad, pacifists paying for boot camp, feminists learning to pole dance, geeks flipping tractor tires...

Yoga: We're a nation of giant toddlers dragging our blankets (yoga mats) and water bottles wherever we go.

A new activity requiring a specialized roof rack seems to be invented every day.

Forget about triathlons.  Now you have to run for days over a mountain range or through an obstacle course designed by counterterrorism experts to get any cred. (This reminds me of the folks I met in Crested Butte...)

While my mom was turning into a member of The Moral Majority, dad was having an affair with the young man who helped with their yardwork.

It was time to go Back East. And not just east, but to that hotbed of enlightened gaiter-wearing transcendentalists -- New England.  Vermont had mountains built right into its name.

If I wanted to be fully alive, I was clearly going to have to scrape the bottom of my grief for my father.

Seven years after (my mom's) two and a half year prognosis, and ten weeks after her last workout at the "Y"...the undertakers came and wheeled her out the back door on a gurney.  Not her of course, her body.  The portal through which I'd come into the world....Next it would be my turn.



One of my first memories also looks like this, Nov 1963






....Until next month, happy reading and rambling!